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1.22.2017
For Macon

For you, Macon I feel for him Yet he’s a stranger to me It was his eyes and sensitivity that caught me I feel I am falling for you We have met only a few times If we ever meet I would love to get a hug and for him to hold my hand I don’t want to move too fast You are the same age as me What matters is that you love me for me Im not sure you love me Because its too soon I’m finding myself falling for you fast I tried to look for you near my home You are enigma A mystery It’s not even looks really Its your aura, your kind heart How can we love from afar I dream of you last nite Of you laying beside me and hugging me Snuggling next to each other I wish I could invite you over but y ou’d have to introduce yourself to my mother first She doesn’t like strangers to come over to the house Soon one dray We will meet I hope. © jmajestic designz 2016

Posted at 09:32 pm by poeticstyles
 

4.3.2016
Give Love

Give Love Dear baby girl Ur bday is coming up I just want to see u again and leave roses on ur grave site I am wishing u were alive to see how I am now I feel numb thinking about what I went thru It was me that wanted u from day one He didn’t want u 15 mins away Really? I saw the school recently this week And I see how cruel of a world To see that I was around the corner Yet u say it wasn’t ur fault It was My father saw u Saw u with other girls on his out and abouts It hurt m eto the core Cause I gave u all of me U were my heart love And now I don’t have many chances to have another baby I stay celibate because I don’t want to give it up to anyone But my hubby wheni have one This is gonna be a rough week Already the family is mourning her She was beautiful I try not to think of that time long ago And try and push forward We were supposed to see her this week I hope I can keep from the tears fallin on my cheeks Loved him and my baby girl like no other I try to find someone that’ll appreciate me as I am The funny and friendly person I am Yet I try and be friends with ppl and be peaceful But they try my patience I feel uncomfortable with cj’s friends in my room Im thinkin of living somewhere peaceful I feel peaceful when im with my mom and dad and brother I don tkno why ppl hate us We’ve done nothing to them So much racism I love all races I don’t discriminate in friendship or love I am a very giving person When I give I give my all What guy wouldn’t want a girl that is giving Not only in heart but in gestures U know saying u love them Hugging them Showing ur love I give with my heart maybe to the wrong people It takes time to get to know me Because if I feel comfortable with a guy It makes me want to be more open with the guy Make me want to talk to him Ya know I love unconditionally If I don’t get love back then I move on Just like one of my friend s said I feel complete when im with my family and When im with someone I love So I hope I can get thru this difficult time. ©jmajestic 2016  

Posted at 06:55 pm by poeticstyles
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3.16.2016
Wishful thinking/rememberiing u

how i miss how u were
i know u have changed
u have told me over and over
but i still believe there is some feeling of something in u
i know i have to get used to again
it feels weird
but i was happy that i got to talk and hear ur voice
i wish we could be togehter but i wish u well
altho i wish it was me
i tried to tell u that
i tried to tell u that the girl ur with is ur sister in law
that is what her last name means
i think u refuse to believe it because u have feelings for her
i have feelings for u
but i wasnt thinkin bout sex i was thinkin bout a relationship
u say it doesnt work
but how do u know
its different for every person
im afraid u wont talk to me now that u have someone
u know her as someoen u can talk to
i cant say what her position is but u know her because of that
 i have changed for the good
i stilllove my family
and i understand that u believe in being family oriented too
u still helpin out fam
i respect that
i do the same
i mean i dont talksexual because i dont want u to think thats the only thing im after
im not after that
i just want a guy i can trust
a guy that protects me
and has me beside family
god
family/bf
friends
always
i thought i'd be married before now
i still think u are the best guy
because u know me already
and that u dont have to stay all over to getting to know me
i would like ot talk to u but at the same t ime u say youve changed
i dont see it that way
other than u feeling irritated when we talked and then joked a lil bit
my dad thinks u would be good for me
i mean u used to say i was the female version of u
that u were my other half
i still believe that
even if u dont
i just didn twanna rush things thats why i didnt go with u last year
i wanted to take my time to get to know u
i dont see a problem in that
but if ur married i dont know if we'll be able to talk
i love u and i dont know what todo with these feelings
i only like men that are gentleman like ur self
but also like the same subjects
i know we had a chance and shut u down
but its only because i didnt want to be fighting over u
i was only talking ot one person till i saw that he wasnt the person i thought
that he was someone i knew somewhere once
thats when i stopped talking ot him.
i was celibate and still am
i didnt go with any other guy
im saving myself for a good hubby/bf
to one day hav emy dream wedding
i still remember u wanting to marry when we first met
and how u told me u were inlove with me the first or second date
i almost made u miss your class lol
butu stayed for me and then u eventually started going just like me
we dreamed of bein in hawiia for our honeymoon
it was bad how it ended
and i still regret not stayin gwith u
but its becaus eof how u pushe dme away
i dont like bringing it up cuz u get defensive
but im tryin to keep in touch so we can still be friends
but i don tkno whow ur gf will take that.

Posted at 04:44 pm by poeticstyles
 

1.3.2016
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Why do i feel this sadness come over me

I miss how it used to be in the old days

But if u dwell on it itll swallow u up 

Gotta fight it with happiness

Dont let it drag u in

Surround yourself with positive ppl

Try hobbies youve always wanted to do

Sometin to keep your mind occupied’

Sometimes it keeps your mind from racing

Andn thinkin depressive thoughts

 

 



Posted at 12:41 pm by poeticstyles
 

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I want to become a better woman

But its like i cant get myself to change from how i was in my younger years

If i change will i finally get someone that respects me

I dont want to be used for just one thing

I am more than that

I have a mind

All guys ever see is hte physical

Women are less critical

When u do get a guy thats sensitive and attentive it is rare

Thats a keeper’

But sometimes guys show theier hurt in a different way

It couod be pushing u away or not talking to u

But if u give them time they will come back to you

Its all about quality time

 

Without that a relationship will not flourish

And other times there are some that need to be shown affection

Like u care about what they do 

And be supportive

I feel i can give hiim that

Whaever guy i may choose

I have lot to bring ot the relationship

And im not a golld digger either

All i ask is for them to give into me as much as i give to them

Easy yes

But not if u are not use dto havin a good man.


Posted at 12:13 pm by poeticstyles
 

1.2.2016
eBONY DREAM


Ebony Dream

 

You are admired every day

I see you in the streets,buildings, everywhere i go

You are a chameleon

Your color could be of the rainbow

Shades of caramel,butter pecan,chocolate,hershey kiss

Only to torment my mind with such ideas

But if i could i would reach it forit and carry it with me

To let its burnin firey light

Shine for me through night and day

To protect me always

And hush my darkest nightmares

With its sweet dreams of what heaven could be 

Like the softest silk against your skin

The cool breeze

Refreshing in the arid desert

Like the mornin dew drops

That fall from the trees

If heaven could be like this

I would wish to never leave

There would be no want of anything 

I would already have what is most precious in the world 

And a fool would give up that treasure.


 


Posted at 01:20 am by poeticstyles
 

Tears

Tears drop from my eyes as i write

My heart feels plucked from my chest

My soul full of anguish

When does the pain end

When there is another fill his place

When i am runnin and do not

Stop

Once i stop

I am consumed by him

His face

His ouch

His kiss

Like torture

For my mind

I knew what

I had to do

To let him go

Was the only way to free me

But it doesnt make it any easier

He was the first to

Make me believe again

To hope

That maybe i will find what i had been searching for

Tis a fools errand

And only a foolcould believe such madness

He was my sun

To see his smile could make a bird sing

His eyes shine of mornin dew on the blades of grass

His touch was like a warm fure that burned deeply.


Tears drop from my eyes as i write

My heart feels plucked from my chest

My soul full of anguish

When does the pain end

When there is another fill his place

When i am runnin and do not

Stop

Once i stop

I am consumed by him

His face

His ouch

His kiss

Like torture

For my mind

I knew what

I had to do

To let him go

Was the only way to free me

But it doesnt make it any easier

He was the first to

Make me believe again

To hope

That maybe i will find what i had been searching for

Tis a fools errand

And only a foolcould believe such madness

He was my sun

To see his smile could make a bird sing

His eyes shine of mornin dew on the blades of grass

His touch was like a warm fure that burned deeply.


Posted at 01:11 am by poeticstyles
 

Eternity

Its safer to keep your feelings to yourself instead of revealing them too early

Cuz if the person doesnt feel the same way u feel embarrassed thaat u admitted to lovin the person

I have dealt wih this a bunch of imes

I am too sensitive and toog ullible i guess

I wishi coudl have a man thats sensitive but strong

Strong mentaly and proective of me

I dont understand why guys feel like tey cant show their feelings

I think if they show it it is okay with me andi can consoel him

But guys wanna be thugs now

Yeqars ago it might have been attractive but not now

Not when u are lookin for family and marriage

Some wanna run game on you

And u believe it and u give all your heart

Just to learn he’s using you

Its like your heart broke

Like why would he do this to me

After all ive done for him

Doenst he see my hurt

Or is he blind by his own problems

We are a unite

And as such should be open even if it hurts the other

That is all i ask for.


Posted at 01:10 am by poeticstyles
 

12.15.2015
Moonlight

moon
shining bright above
like a distant star
wha sectrets do u harvest
must be somethin for so many space visitors to wonder of
for the little child
to follow through the night  in its window
coudl it be secrets
of the impossible
or the mysteriousness
of the full moon
strangers have worshipped u so
for your power of the night
you are the guider
of sailors lost at sea
with you
there is a way home.

Posted at 09:05 pm by poeticstyles
 

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I try to dispel the thoughts of worries weighin on the mind

My shoulders

Everybody wants a piece of me

Andi try to supply the demand

Buti its never enough 

Either i hurt those i dont meant to 

Or im mad at myself for overdoing it and being everything to everybody

I wish to push them away

But its hard once u are used to a ritual

Its engrained in u

Where to sever it

Would be like denying nicotine to a cigarette 

Its addictive

But i must

If only to deal alone

Like the time before 

Now that i’ve had my taste of the candy jar

Feel of sweetness

Is startin to disgust my taste buds

Till i cant taste it no more

The newness

And unique

So i need to lock it away

And block the desires that 

Invade my thoughts

At the mere mention of the times. 


Posted at 09:03 pm by poeticstyles
 

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